Monday, March 22, 2010

It's been sooooooo long!!

Hiiiyeee!! Hehehehe! It's been so long that I dont think so anyone visits my blog anymore. Even the author, ME, dont even come by! Jeeezzz!!
Ok, many updates!
First of all, I've been teaching at Laines for a grand total of 2 months! It's been a roller coaster journey and I've learnt sooo much. From my head designer, Sharon, (whom I've secretly admired for the last 5 years) to Nancy, Cynthia, Betty, Merdrey, Yanni, Zn, Elaine, (my boss)! Thank you all babes!
It's my dream come true to be able to teach and design at Laines. I've been trying out other stuff since I quit teaching. I've taught scrapbooking in schools, taught my friends and ex-colleagues in my own home.... I could not believe that Laines would want me!
There were lots of stuff to learn, to do, to achieve. There were also alot of things that I didn't expect to have to do and then I had to do it. Initially, I was pretty overwhelmed. I was constantly tired (that's coz I haven't been working for such a loooong time!) constantly battling my own insecurities ( how can I ever live up to Sharon's standards??!!) constantly feeling guilty that I'm not spending enough time with my kids.
Finally, after about 2.5 weeks into the job, hubby sat me down and talked to me. The tiring part will just have to be slowly overcome. The insecurity part, I needed to get over. I just will never be able to create like Sharon. Nobody can. She's in this whole fantastic sphere all by herself. (you can tell how much I admire her ya!) I needed to have my own identity and own expertise. No need to live up to anyone's standards, that was just crazy! Said my ever logical husband. It made sense. I adjusted, I lived through students who were just plain mean and said mean stuff. That was just one or two of them. The rest were so fantastically supportive and patient! I thank all of them for their patience and help! (Unlikely they'll ever read this though...)
As for the guilty part, husband was super supportive. He'd be there for the kids whenever I was not. When both of us were busy working, we worked out with my mum, my aunt and his mum to take the kids or come over to our house just to keep and eye on them and the maid.
Finally....... most of my problems solved. Not that everything is all rosy and happy now. There's more and more stuff I've got to do. More and more challenges I've got to face and more and more nasty customers I'll have to deal with in future.
But when Nancy asked me, "Do you have any regrets? Would you choose this all over again?" I confidently answered her, "No, I have no regrets and yes, I'd choose to do this all over again!"


Wati Basri said...

u are doin great babe...just be yourself :) see u around at LP!!

Yin said...

Well done Shirley! I'm so glad to have finally met you in person. Looking forward to chatting more with you the next time.

Have a good week!

sharon Ong said...

Hey Shirley! There are things that ONLY YOU can do - skills and talents that ONLY YOU have - and the unique mix of talents and skills that you have is precious and special! And we value that very much. Must remember that hor? No matter what mean comments you may encounter. You are doing great! Being yourself is....just right and the best thing of all. :o)

Brainybairn said...

WTG gal! So happy for you! Catch up some time ya? Busy busy busy now! Sigh!

Betty said... are doing just great...take it easy...just need more time...and of course just be yourself and can do better than me...i strongly believe that...we all gone thru what you have gone thru...your colleague will be there for you...esp...sharon...hehehe..

Edleen said...

hello busy lady! glad you're back to blog world :D

from the words of Dr Seuss,
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

see you sometime soon and stay Groovie! :D