Hiiiyeee!! Hehehehe! It's been so long that I dont think so anyone visits my blog anymore. Even the author, ME, dont even come by! Jeeezzz!!
Ok, many updates!
First of all, I've been teaching at Laines for a grand total of 2 months! It's been a roller coaster journey and I've learnt sooo much. From my head designer,
Sharon, (whom I've secretly admired for the last 5 years) to Nancy, Cynthia,
Betty,
Merdrey, Yanni, Zn, Elaine, (my boss)! Thank you all babes!
It's my dream come true to be able to teach and design at Laines. I've been trying out other stuff since I quit teaching. I've taught scrapbooking in schools, taught my friends and ex-colleagues in my own home.... I could not believe that Laines would want me!
There were lots of stuff to learn, to do, to achieve. There were also alot of things that I didn't expect to have to do and then I had to do it. Initially, I was pretty overwhelmed. I was constantly tired (that's coz I haven't been working for such a loooong time!) constantly battling my own insecurities ( how can I ever live up to Sharon's standards??!!) constantly feeling guilty that I'm not spending enough time with my kids.
Finally, after about 2.5 weeks into the job, hubby sat me down and talked to me. The tiring part will just have to be slowly overcome. The insecurity part, I needed to get over. I just will never be able to create like Sharon. Nobody can. She's in this whole fantastic sphere all by herself. (you can tell how much I admire her ya!) I needed to have my own identity and own expertise. No need to live up to anyone's standards, that was just crazy! Said my ever logical husband. It made sense. I adjusted, I lived through students who were just plain mean and said mean stuff. That was just one or two of them. The rest were so fantastically supportive and patient! I thank all of them for their patience and help! (Unlikely they'll ever read this though...)
As for the guilty part, husband was super supportive. He'd be there for the kids whenever I was not. When both of us were busy working, we worked out with my mum, my aunt and his mum to take the kids or come over to our house just to keep and eye on them and the maid.
Finally....... most of my problems solved. Not that everything is all rosy and happy now. There's more and more stuff I've got to do. More and more challenges I've got to face and more and more nasty customers I'll have to deal with in future.
But when Nancy asked me, "Do you have any regrets? Would you choose this all over again?" I confidently answered her, "No, I have no regrets and yes, I'd choose to do this all over again!"